The Bucket List
My post on Tuesday, “There’s Something Wrong with You,” wasn’t an intent to call out my peers who made fun of me at an early age. While at some points in my life I did hold blame and anger I no longer hold any such feelings towards these people. Do I remember who my harassers were? Yes, but they were just children as well and I imagine that they also had painful experiences going on tin their lives. Kids by nature are mean and hurtful as they practice what it really means to be in the world and have relationships with others, both positive and negative. In fact by posting those pictures on my blog and subsequently on Facebook I’ve reconnected with quite a few people and I’m enjoying finding out where my former classmates are in their lives. To me this reconnection is the true beauty of technology and one of its only saving graces.
Today children experience a totally new ball game as technology and the expectations of media have morphed teasing into more severe bullying and harassment. While I only suffered at school, there no longer are safe zones for children as they are accessible at any time. I imagine the effects of this on the new generations will be quite extreme. Now if only we could get insurance companies to actually pay for psychotherapy instead of mind-numbing medications, perhaps some repercussions of this expanse of technology could be avoided.
As for the adults that have lashed out to me in the later years I am split in my ability to forgive. Forgiveness is not a black and white process and while somedays I am more able to step into it, there are days where I still hold on to some lingering anger. I don’t chastise myself for my inability to forgive. Inspite of talking ad nauseum about forgiveness and acceptance I am not always able to harness these for myself. After all I am human too. Instead I accept my anger, listen to it and move on; without judgement. Running from our anger or shutting it out only makes it come back tenfold. We can’t run forever.
Yesterday’s post on honesty was a sort of teaser about what is actually on my bucket list. Thus I present…
This is not just any bucket. This is a plastic red bucket that was on sale at Target. Perhaps you envision your bucket list inside a nice wooden bucket? Not mine! I like RED and I like my $2 bucket! It even came with one of those awesome clearance stickers. Plus this awesome bucket is super useful. I use it to clean my floors and to drain my kitchen since when I inadvertently back it up twice a year. Someday I will learn to not put egg shells and peels down the drain!
Onto the list, in no specific order, and some of this is currently in the works:
Hannah Siegle’s Bucket List
1. Take classes in web design, digital design, and photography
2. Open a yoga studio
3. Visit Indonesia and work with Orangutans
4. Visit Africa and work with Elephants
5. Trek the Inca Trail
6. Volunteer more with rescue dogs, perhaps becoming a foster
7. Grow a garden
8. Write a book-I have three ideas in the works!
9. Become a yoga therapist
10. Open a non-profit or branch of an already existing foundation to raise money for those who can’t afford eating disorder treatments
11. Learn paper cutting
12. Do a handstand in the middle of the room
13. Buy a house and paint my rooms in bright colors
14. Find someone to spend my life with
15. Have children
What is on your bucket list?